Thursday, 25 June 2015

...... but God causes the growth

Years ago I planted four separate
things in pots of soil.
Two were acorns.  They eventually
grew into two small oak trees,
which I brought with us when we
moved here over five years ago,
and have in tubs in my back garden.

I have always loved growing things,
and get quite excited when I see the
first signs of the plants emerging
from the soil.

Another thing I  planted was a fig, that too in a pot of soil, and which gradually grew into a small fig tree.   I  also brought this small tree with us to this house.  I put it into the ground and it has now grown to about three feet high. 
The amazing thing is that it has actually produced three figs this year for the first time.
My husband loves figs so I am hoping that these will eventually ripen enough for him to be able to eat them.

The fourth thing that I planted was a grape seed.  This plant had always been in a pot outside all through the year, until we came to live here.  Then I put it into the front porch which is like a greenhouse when the sun is out.  
About a month ago I put it back outside and I have to say that it appears to be thriving better there than it did indoors. 
Perhaps one day I will get a greenhouse and see how it does in there.
There is something in all of this which really speaks spiritually to me about having humility in the Lord.
Although I have thoroughly enjoyed watching these plants grow,  there is no way that I could take any credit regarding the actual growth of the plants.  I know how to place the original seed in the ground, and I can encourage it to grow by watering it, but that is all that I can do.  All credit regarding the growth goes to God.
The same applies to my calling in the church, which I believe is evangelism and, strangely enough, I have to say that just like my grapevine  thrives when outdoors I too love being outside sharing the gospel.  However, I may plant, I may water, but it is God who causes the growth, and all credit and glory can only go to Him.
This is emphasized in 1 Corinthians ch. 3 v. 6 and 7  where the apostle Paul says 'I planted, Apollos watered, but God caused it to grow.  So neither the one who plants counts for anything, nor the one who waters, but God who causes the growth. '
 'Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.'
Ephesians ch. 3 v. 20

Sunday, 31 May 2015

Love one another as I have loved you

When I first came to the Lord poems and songs just dropped into my mind, some of them were almost like questions that I believe the Lord could have been asking me.   I always thought that I had a fair amount of love for people, and did have to a certain degree.   The problem was that it was 'human love', which is conditional. 

The following is one of those poems that revealed to me many things that my 'love' was lacking when compared to the love that is required by Jesus in John ch. 13 v. 34:-
' A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.'

So you think you have love

So you think you have love son of Adam
you think that you're gentle and kind
'til your wife leaves you for another
and the hate drives you out of your mind

And you think that you're patient - long suffering
.... you can tolerate everyone
'til a tramp who is filthy comes near you
and you feel like you want to run

Can you say that you're really forgiving
that you're filled with mercy and grace
can you truly say there is no evil thought
behind your smiling face?

So you think you have love son of Adam
you think that you've been set free
Then brother I've one thing to ask you
.... Would you die for me?

When I examined myself against the words of this poem I could see that there was a vast difference between what I thought was 'love' and what 'love' is according to God.  The Lord does not ask us to physically die as He did, but we have to spiritually 'die' to our carnal self, 'For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.' Romans ch. 8 v. 6. 

So what is love?  1 Corinthians 13 vs. 4 - 7 gives this interpretation of love:-
'Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.'

I realized I fell very short of this kind of love in most areas.    Regarding 'patience', I believed that I could tolerate much.  However, when I looked up the word 'patience' in the dictionary and saw the meaning as 'the ability to endure with calmness', I realized that many of the things that I could endure were done not with 'calmness', but with gritted teeth.
I asked the Lord to help me in this area and within a very short time I had a job working as a carer in a residential home for the elderly.  I could not have been in a better place to learn patience.

We have to have our minds renewed in Christ:- 'that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.Ephesians ch. 4 vs. 22 - 24, learning line upon line, precept upon precept, as we are taught by the Holy Spirit. 
Jesus says 'If you love Me, keep my commands.'  That is not the ten commandments of the law, because there is not one person on earth who could gain 'righteousness' through the keeping of the  old testament law.  We would fail miserably through spiritual weakness, and we need  the Holy Spirit to help us, as Jesus states in John ch. 16 v. 8:- 'And when He has come, He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:'. 

Jesus is the Word of God, and keeping Jesus' commands is to ' be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.'  James ch. 1 v. 22 , and this can only come about through having our minds renewed in Christ. '  Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.' Romans ch. 12 v. 2 .

Sometimes we may find it hard to love one another, depending on what we each focus on, and look for, in our brothers and sisters.  However, the Lord has made us all different for a reason, and those differences should not divide, they should unite.  God made the cactus, a very prickly plant.  Yet it can supply water to a person who finds himself in a desert.

I have always loved blackberries, and when I was a child I was brought up on the edge of a town.  One of my favourite pastimes was to go into the countryside and pick them.   My husband loves blackberries too, but hates the bramble, as demonstrated a few days ago when bushes from a field behind our bungalow were intruding over the back garden wall.

There were brambles amongst the bushes, and they were beginning to flower.  I had to stay out there and watch him constantly as he trimmed the bushes, to make sure he did not cut the brambles too.  Without the fruit, he saw them only as a prickly plant.

Many people might think of the bramble from the thorny point of view, forgetting that it bears a beautiful fruit, and sometimes we can see a brother or sister in the Lord in a similar way, but it may be that they have a certain type of personality to be used by the Lord in a particular way to reach similar people.  We are all different, yet joined as one in the Lord.

Through plants like the rose and the bramble I am taught not to judge by what I see, for according to when I look I only see a small part of the picture of what they fully are, God sees the whole picture.

The Bramble                            

God made everything on Earth
and saw that it was good
'though man will often judge between
the silver and the wood
To be counted as nothing or great in man's book
matters not in our Father's esteem
for He's made every creature  with purpose in mind 
regardless of how it might seem
And whether mighty or humble -rich or poor 
our God desires nothing should waste
for even the bramble bears a beautiful rose
and a fruit that is good to the taste

I am still learning to 'love' in the way that the Lord asks me to in John ch. 13 v. 34, and have been tested through many trials regarding this, but I welcome the change that only the Lord could bring about through His teaching, as I have my mind renewed in Him.

Monday, 27 April 2015

No other Name under Heaven has authority to save

My friend and myself were in a town where we meet up every week.  A street ranger that we know came over to talk to us, he was with his boss.  As we were chatting, his boss noticed that a young lady had dropped some litter, and went over to see her.  The other man said that he would probably fine her because that was what they did.  I looked at the young lady and felt quite sorry for her, she did not look as if she would have a lot of money, and I think it may have been a cigarette that she had dropped.  ' I would not be able to do your job' I said to him.  I can understand that litter must not be dropped and I would not drop litter myself, but I also understand that our human nature causes us to be weak in areas of discipline and correction.
It brought me to think about what Jesus has done for us and how much greater God's love is for us than mine was for that young lady.  God allowed Jesus' sacrifice not only to pay the price for us to be forgiven of our sins but God enables us through that sacrifice of His Son to be reconciled back to Him, taught His ways by having our minds renewed through the Holy Spirit, and have eternal life. 

With all the turmoil that is going on around the world and now this horrendous earthquake, I feel more than ever that the end times when Jesus returns is close, and  to spread the gospel to those who do not know our Lord as their Saviour.
A poem and a song that I wrote years ago came into my mind recently, and when the incident happened in the street regarding the street rangers, I decided to write this post. 

The poem was written of my sadness for those who do not know the Lord as their Saviour, and the song was a conviction of the need to do what I believe the Lord was calling me to do, and I feel even more passionate about it now as I believe we are very close to the Lord coming back for His church. ( 1Thessalonians ch. 4 vs. 13 - 18.)

How can I keep silent when all around there's fear
how can I not tell the world that Jesus Christ is near
how can I not speak the words that will lift them from the night
from the darkness of their sorrows.... into everlasting light
How can I keep silent when all around there's shame
how can I not point the way to the One who wears God's name
to the One who has the power to remove our robes of sin
as He speaks new words of life that resurrect the soul within
How can I keep silent when all around there's pain
how can I not say 'Don't in this shaded world remain'
How can I not share the love that was freely given me
Lord...I can't walk past the prison doors

....when You've given me the key


A child is dying in the street, it cries aloud for bread
do we give of what we have or watch it 'til it's dead
....or watch it 'til it's dead

A world was dying in it's sin, it did not ask for bread
God could have given punishment, He gave His Son instead
Yes, He gave His Son instead

The harvest now is ready, the fields are white I see
one thing I ask, my Father, a labourer let me be
....a labourer let me be


For what is salt without the savour
what is the church without the word
what use are we amongst the prisoners
if they say 'Lord, we never heard'
if they say 'Lord, we never heard'

The harvest now is ready, the fields are white I see
one thing I ask, my Father, a labourer let me be
....a labourer let me be

Teach us to be humble Lord, while bearing precious seed
to deal our bread from Heaven to those who are in need those who are in need

The harvest now is ready, the fields are white I see
one thing I ask, my Father, a labourer let me be
...a labourer let me be

I write the following words to anyone who reads this who does not know the Lord

No other name under Heaven

No other name under Heaven has authority to save
no other name but Jesus can lift you from the grave
Not another name under Heaven can bring peace in times of strife
there is no other name but Jesus that can give eternal life
So hear .... the Master calls you, the time is very short
turn away now from all wickedness - your freedom has been bought
God heard Jesus plea for us - up from the grave He rose
The door to life is open ....... but soon it's going to close

'For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.'
                                                                                               1 Corinthians ch.15 v.22

Sunday, 29 March 2015

Hope Eternal

I had a comment on my last blog post from  another blogger, Laurie Collett .  In it she mentioned, regarding the Lord,  'without Him we can do nothing, but with Him, all things are possible'.
Part of my response to Laurie's comment spoke of my opening my Bible to read that morning straight to Psalm 20, where I had previously underlined verse 7 which reads  'Some boast of chariots and some of horses; but we boast of the name of the Lord our God.'
I have to say that I realized some time after that this verse coincides with what the Lord spoke to me regarding my long trial which began many years ago, where He spoke to me personally through Isaiah ch. 31 vs.1-3 with the words
 ' Woe to them that go down to Egypt for help; and stay on horses, and trust in chariots, because they are many; and in horsemen, because they are very strong; but they look not unto the Holy One of Israel, neither seek the Lord! Yet he also is wise, and will bring evil, and will not call back his words: but will arise against the house of the evildoers, and against the help of them that work iniquity. Now the Egyptians are men, and not God; and their horses flesh, and  not spirit.'
I know absolutely that the Lord is using this verse from Psalm 20 to remind and encourage me to continue to trust solely in Him to bring me through this trial, (spoken of in one of my previous posts regardless of the timing of it, and I have to say that I have total peace through His words enlightened to me by the Holy Spirit.  We are in a spiritual battle and the war is not with flesh and blood, and these scriptures to me have to be discerned spiritually. Egypt speaks spiritually of the world and the chariots and horses speak spiritually of worldly strength.
Because of all that is happening in my life at this moment I feel I would like to share in this post  something I wrote years ago regarding 'HOPE'.

Some years ago a relative of mine sent me a poem he had written.  It was about feelings and thoughts during an interview, which started off with the subject being hopeful of being accepted and which ended with these hopes being dashed. 

I noticed that each of the three verses of the poem had a specific letter at the beginning of each line.  These letters ran in the sequence of DSU.   As I looked at these letters a sentence formed in my mind:- 
'Don't Sink Under',
Then these words came into my mind:- 

Don't sink under when things do not go
according to your own plan
for each of your days is written in the book
of One far greater than man 

I thought about these words and how we can feel that things may be going wrong for us because something that we hoped for and expected to happen does not happen, or maybe does not happen at the time that we want or expect it to happen.  Yet, how do we know that maybe our own plans were meant to fail to allow God's plans to come to pass in our lives..... and maybe at His perfect timing
Jesus' plan for Peter to walk on water was not achieved through Peter's own efforts.  It was achieved through keeping his eyes on Jesus, not on the circumstance he found himself in.  Jesus says that in the world we have tribulation, in Him we have peace, ' These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.' John ch. 16 v.33  so we should not let tribulation worry us to the extent that we sink within the circumstance.   We must keep our eyes upon Jesus, and the word that has been spoken to us as we seek Him.
A few days ago I hurt my back through picking up a bag of top soil to take out into the garden  in order to plant some iris in tubs.  I was ticked off by my husband who said I should have come to ask him to carry it for me instead of trying to do it myself.  It spoke spiritually to me immediately.  How many times do we as Christians try to carry, and endeavour to tackle, our earthly burdens ourselves instead of going to the One of whom we are advised to 'cast our burdens upon' as in:-
Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.  Psalm ch. 55 v.22,
'Commit your works to the Lord, and your thoughts will be established Proverbs ch. 16 v.3
'casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. 1 Peter ch. 5 v. 7

This is a little poem that I wrote that spoke comfort to me regarding trusting the Lord instead of myself in these situations:-

Do not worry, do not fear
let your heart be still
For who on earth of mortal man
can always know God's will
But this we know, who worship Him
by faith shall live the just
For then we see the power of
The One in whom we trust

' You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed upon You, because he trusts in You.  Trust in the Lord forever for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.'    Isaiah ch.26 vs 3,4

The more we trust in the Lord the more our faith in Him will grow.  What is faith?  Is it not ' 'the substance of things hoped for'? Hebrews ch. 11 v.1


Psalm 142 says that when our spirit is faint the Lord knows our way, that when we cry to Him saying that He is our refuge, our portion in the land of the living, and ask for deliverance from an enemy ( remembering that our enemies are spiritual, not flesh and blood) too strong for us, He will deal bountifully with us.

Hope does not cease to be because we are weak in faith, unable to believe or fail to hold on to what God has spoken. It is merely hidden from our view by shadows of our frail humanity.  Hope is eternal, as God is eternal.  Its fire cannot be quenched, though ashes of mortality be cast upon its coals when floods of fear and pain block our vision of God's power. Yet still its embers, burning bright, may be rekindled as breath of love divine once more fans flames of hope within the heart of man, when written word and Spirit mind recall the plan and purpose of creator God and His Son.  Then shadows sinister and cold recede and disappear, as soul of man unites with love of God, and conquers once again that which seeks to cause doubt.

An 'enemy too strong for us' can be many things.  Sickness, loneliness, debt, jealousy, covetousness or guilt are just a few examples.

If we are afraid of an enemy our fear will usually cause us to run from that enemy, and it will give chase until we tire of running, and it will overpower us.
When Jehoshaphat was told 'A great multitude is coming against you from Edom'  2 Chronicles ch. 20 v.2  we are told; 'He feared, and set himself to seek the Lord,' v.3 
So too, we who are spiritual Israelites, though we fear, may set ourselves to seek the Lord in the same way that Jehoshaphat did, and ask for help. 
The Lord's answer to Jehoshaphat through the prophet was 'Fear not and be not dismayed at this great multitude, for the battle is not yours but God's'. 2 Chronicles ch. 20 v.15  Will the answer not be the same for us?

This is a prayer that I wrote for myself, I make it a prayer for any and all who choose it also to be a prayer for themselves.

 Hope Eternal

Oh hope eternal, flame of God,
disposer of all strife
with fuel of power, Spirit borne,
create in me new life
Bring change of mind in circumstance,
when all around is night
cause doubt in heart to be dispelled
 by brightness of Your light
Oh hope eternal, love divine
create in me new heart
that line of safety.... Spirit cord
might never break apart

Friday, 13 March 2015

When each part is working properly

For the last few days something I wrote quite a few years ago has been coming into my mind.  It was an article called 'Rapture'.  I thought I might put it up as a post on my blog, but was not sure if I had already done so.  I looked it up and realized that I had posted it a couple of years ago.

I have a little gold book by the side of my computer, one of the diaries that I have written in.  I opened it and noticed that the page I had opened to had many of the things written in it that were in the article 'Rapture'.  So I have decided to put up this post, edited,  so that I can re tell in the present time what happened at that time. 

The church that I attended at the time I first wrote this post  is not the church that I attend now, and I have added a few photographs.

Several years ago I had a dream in which I was looking at certain stars in the sky.  As I looked at them they appeared to grow in explosive glory, yet were not destroyed.  It was absolutely beautiful.  In the dream my husband was stood nearby and I asked him to look at the stars, but when he looked he saw them as normal stars.  Then some other people came along who were unbelievers, and I asked them to look at the same stars.  They too saw them as normal stars.  A short time after I had the dream I bought some new gold coloured curtains, and when I got them home and went to take them out of the packet I noticed they were called 'Rapture', and that the pattern on them was very much like the exploding stars that I had seen in my dream.  The word 'rapture' means 'to be carried to a state of extreme joy', and that was exactly the state I had been in, watching the stars in my dream. 
Soon  after, I went to the church that I was attending at the time and the pastor was saying that he and the family had visited a waterfall in a local park.  Then a lady spoke of waterfalls of wine, the pastor following on speaking of how new wine could not be put into old wineskins but had to be put into new wineskins.  I noticed that the lady who spoke on 'waterfalls of wine' had a dress on with an almost identical pattern to my curtains, only the background colour was brown instead of gold. 
I told my son, who had moved to the area recently, that the waterfalls were there, because he had said that when he moved down here from Scotland he wanted to visit many of the waterfalls in the area.  He said he knew of the waterfalls that the pastor had spoken about, and that they were partially man made.  Again I felt that something was being pointed out to me, that the waterfalls that were partially man made and the dress with the brown (representing earthly wisdom) background colour could be speaking spiritually of man's interference with God's word and the Holy Spirit in some way and that if it was, then the Lord would reveal more to me if I prayed and waited.
Some time after, I was reading 2 Kings chapter 2 where the men of the city were telling Elisha that the situation of the city of Jericho was pleasant but the water was bad and the land was unfruitful.  Elisha asked for a new bowl and put salt in it.  Then he went to the spring and threw salt in it, and the word of the Lord came to him to say that the water was made wholesome and that neither death nor miscarriage would come from it.
After I had read this I was thinking about sharing my thoughts with the pastor at the church, and I reached for my UCB daily reading book.  When I opened to the reading for the day it was saying that we all have gaps and that the best way to handle the weaknesses was to work together and it was encouraging us to work more together and not to be like  Diotrephes who not only refused to welcome the brethren, but also stopped those who wanted to welcome them.

I was about to put up on my front room wall a print of two geese painted originally in watercolour.   I was reminded of a book I have called 'Why geese fly farther than eagles'   The following is a paragraph from that book which reflects to me the way the body of Christ should function as stated in Ephesians chapter 4 verse 16 '....... joined and knit together by every joint with which it is supplied, when each part is working properly, makes bodily growth and up builds itself in love.'

'When the head goose grabs the wind, air is displaced, which then rushes up to reclaim its space only to see the smiling face of the bird flying behind, whose wings just happen to be in the downward position - a very dangerous condition, which doesn't last for long, because the upward rush gives them a push, and they're right back up where they belong.  This goose then grabs the air again, causing another upward wind, which lifts the bird behind.  And so it goes on down the line.  So the head goose breaks the wind, and all the rest are carried by him, with very little effort, I've heard, on the part of any one bird.  When the head goose has had enough, he or she simply drops back and depends on another bird for strength when strength is what is lacked.
So that's how I found out how the goose can fly from up north to way down south and back again.  But she cannot do it alone, you see.  It's something that must be done in community.  These days it's a popular notion, and people swell with emotion and pride when they think of themselves on the eagle-side, solitary, self-sufficient, strong.  But we are what we are.  That's something we cannot choose.  Though many would wish to be seen as an eagle, I think God made most like the goose.'
That Sunday the pastor of the church that I attended was saying to my friend and myself that if anyone has anything they want to share during the service they have to speak to the appointed convener about it and he will decide whether it should be shared or not.  Does not 1 Corinthians ch. 14 v. 26 say 'What then shall we say, brothers and sisters? When you come together, each of you has a hymn, or a word of instruction, a revelation, a tongue or an interpretation. Everything must be done so that the church may be built up.'  

A few Sundays previous it was preached in church that if people did not go to the doctors with certain sicknesses they would die. 
I had been trusting in the Lord solely for a particular healing  and when I got home that day I sought the Lord regarding what had been spoken in church and I opened my Bible to read.  On the page in front of me was a verse in Psalm 118 that I had underlined some time previous.  It reads ' I shall not die, but I shall live, and recount the deeds of the Lord.'  I asked the Lord if He was speaking this word to me, closed my Bible, and opened to exactly the same page, with the same underlined verse speaking to me.
I have to ask, ' If I had asked the Lord this question in church that morning and opened my Bible to this verse twice, would I have been allowed to share this with the church or would the convener have thought that it went against what was being preached regarding 'going to the doctors or dying' and disallowed it, thereby denying this testimony which might have strengthened and encouraged somebody else ?'
Surely there can only be one convener in the church, the Holy Spirit, and are we guilty of trying to interfere with His work by bringing in our own rules instead of following the guidelines of the scriptures when we come together. Daniel ch. 2 v.44 reads:- 'And in the days of these kings the God of heaven will set up a kingdom which shall never be destroyed; and the kingdom shall not be left to other people; it shall break in pieces and consume all these kingdoms, and it shall stand forever.'  

We must not be afraid of a little 'salt' in case it might offend.  Jesus says that we, as believers, are the salt of the Earth:- “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavour, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.  (Matthew ch. 5 v. 13)
Why, in my dream, did not my husband or the unbelievers see the full glory of the stars in the heavens?  I could understand why the unbelievers did not see it, but my husband has been baptized and believes in Jesus.  Was he representing somebody who believes but can not see the full glory because he is guided largely by worldly wisdom and knowledge?   Jeremiah ch. 15 v. 16 reads:- 'Thy words were found, and I ate them; and Thy word was unto me the joy and rejoicing of mine heart; for I am called by Thy name, O Lord God of hosts.'   
Nehemiah  ch. 8 v. 10 contains the words 'the joy of the Lord is your strength.'

In order to be carried to that 'extreme state of joy',  the word of the Lord has to be our strength.  Then we shall be able to put off the old brown (earthly) wineskins and put on our new gold (Christ like )ones?

I have only just recently noticed messages on my computer which say that people have added me to their circles.  My apologies to the people who have done this, but I have no idea what this means.  I shall find out from my daughter in law, who is very good on blogs, and rectify the situation.
God bless to all.


Saturday, 7 March 2015

I kept my faith though I was greatly afflicted

I have had a few dreams over the last week,  one was on Wednesday night.   I dreamt that Cain from the television soap Emmerdale was flirting with me.   Then I had gone to buy some food at a café and I could not find my money to pay for it.
We are told that the scriptures are discerned spiritually and Cain in the Bible represents one who comes to God with an offering of something grown from the earth.   I felt the Lord was pointing out to me not to  allow the carnal mind and its reasoning, which comes from earthly wisdom and knowledge, to seduce me away from the word of the Lord that I believe has been spoken to me regarding my healing, or I could be left poorer spiritually. 

I have recently had my gold keys and chain repaired at the jeweller's.  One key had fallen off, one of the three keys with hearts on alongside the keys which hold the name of Jesus on them.  The hearts to me had represented  Father, Son and Holy Spirit and, although they had all worn a little, I felt the one that had fallen off was representing the Holy Spirit to me because I have been in danger of not holding on to what has been enlightened to me by the Holy Spirit in the scriptures - God's promise to me of healing.  Fortunately the key had fallen off in the house so it was not lost completely.
The total cost of the repair was £116 and I was immediately reminded of Psalm 116, which is a Psalm of thanksgiving for deliverance from death.  One of the verses which has always spoken to me from this Psalm, and which I felt I was being reminded of as I continue waiting for the promise of my complete healing is verse 10. 'I kept my faith even when I said 'I am greatly afflicted'.

I knew straight away that all things were working together, and that the Lord was encouraging me through the Psalm to keep my faith by holding on to the enlightened word spoken to me, (even though I was greatly afflicted), and warning me through the  dream about Cain not to let thoughts and reasoning growing in  the carnal (earthly) mind rob me of God's promise.
Recently I bought a pair of trousers and a top while out in a nearby town with my husband, sister and brother in law.  When I got home I went to hang them in my wardrobe and noticed that the label on the trousers had these words on it:- FAITHFUL and TRUE

I knew these words were somewhere in the scriptures but was not sure where. I went into my workroom and turned my computer on to look for where these words are.
I found that they are written in Revelation ch. 19 v. 11:- 'Now I saw heaven opened, and behold, a white horse. And He who sat on him was called Faithful and True, and in righteousness He judges and makes war.' 

As I read this verse I looked up from my computer at my white china horse that I had bought while on holiday in Czechoslovakia many years ago.

I believe absolutely nothing is coincidence, and that the Lord knew that I would buy those trousers with that label on, and would have the white horse placed on my shelf above my computer, which would both go together with the scripture in Revelation ch. 19.  (He sees the end from the beginning) 
I believe it is all to encourage me to trust wholly in the promise He has given me, that He is Faithful and True, and that  I must believe Him and the word that He gives me as guidance through this trial no matter what the eyes see and the carnal mind tries to argue, just as Abraham believed God no matter what the circumstance appeared to be.
Jesus says in John ch. 14 v. 15 'If you love Me you will keep my commandments. 

So I must endeavour to do what I believe He is telling me to do, and I can only say 'I will love Thee O Lord my strength,' as I make this little song that I wrote some years ago my prayer.

Help me Lord, I'm battle scarred and weary
Satan's hand is much too strong for me
but I know, if You will be my friend by my side,
my old foe will have to turn and flee

Change me Lord according to Your image,
bend me Lord according to Your will
You alone can make me what God wants me to be
take my fears and cause me to be still

For You alone have conquered
You've won the victory
and I can share these blessings
if You're living inside of me

So change me Lord according to Your image
bend me Lord according to Your will
You alone can make me what God wants me to be
take my fears  - and cause me to be still

March 9th

Just to add:- I went to church yesterday and the man who was taking the meeting read out a prophesy that had been written down.  It contained the words 'Faithful and true'.  I shall ask to read the whole prophesy next week, as I believe it is on-going confirmation for me.


Tuesday, 3 February 2015

Increase my faith in You Lord

This post is not written to judge, it is written to encourage those who may have had a word from the Lord concerning healing in the same way that I did.

For many months now I have been waiting on the Lord to heal me completely from lumps in my body that have been there for over twenty five years.  Up until a few months ago the Lord kept me through the word He had given me all that time ago which was 'My grace is sufficient for you', and God has always been the strength in my weakness.  Then I believe He spoke to me very strongly through Psalm 103 regarding healing me 'from all my diseases'. Whereas before I felt like I was in a 'Paul's thorn in the flesh' situation, I now feel as if I am in a 'Job' situation.

Since then other physical ailments have attacked my body, making my joints painful, preventing me from walking long distances and causing problems for me when I am gardening.   Also, I let my reasoning cause some wavering in my complete trust in the Lord's promise, looking up possible causes of my symptoms on the internet and allowing man's knowledge to cause doubt in my mind, and started to dwell on the negative possibilities of what my future may hold.   Immediately I knew I had done wrong, (one of the first scriptures the Lord spoke to me many years ago was 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding'), but found it a little hard to take these thoughts captive, even though I have had much evidence of the Lord's healing power and the fact that He can bring about miracles.  However, I have had times over the last few months when I have constantly prayed and praised the Lord and the pain has disappeared completely for some time.

One night I had a dream that I lost the two emeralds in a ring I have.  The colour green has always reminded me of healing, possibly because Revelation ch.22 v.2 states that the leaves of the tree of life are for the healing of the nations, and I believe the Lord, knowing what the colour green reflects to me, used this in the dream to warn me of my wavering trust in Him and my allowing man's knowledge to cause doubt regarding His promise to heal me.  In the dream I searched for the missing emeralds and found lots of semi precious stones and even some that looked similar to the emeralds but were not the real thing.  This reminded me of my looking for (on the Internet) alternative remedies for my situation other than waiting on the Lord.

Many people may find my life very strange and wonder why I have not gone to the doctor over the last twenty odd years regarding this problem.  I just thought it was time that I shared the reason why, and a little more of my testimony.

I had initially come to be born again of the Holy Spirit in a church in Adelaide, Australia which operated much as the church did two thousand years ago, each individual being allowed to share what God had brought them to share, and using the gifts, including prophesy, that God had given them.  In this church I had seen many miraculous healings and had experienced one myself, having already experienced divine healing as a child through the prayer of faith operating in my father. 

When we came back from Australia to live in Lancashire I looked for a church to attend and prayed that the Lord would lead me to the right one.  Often I would pass a book shop, as I drove to the next town, that had a sign above it saying 'Jesus is Lord'.  This is what I would ask the Lord daily, that He would lead me to a church gathering where He was Lord, and where the people worshiped in Spirit and in truth. 

I was looking in the second hand column of the local newspaper one day and there was an advert that had been placed in the wrong section (or the right one really).  It was asking for anyone who believed that Jesus was their Lord to come and meet up and bring a musical instrument if they played one.  My son and I went to meet up with the three people and the gathering of five grew within a very short time, meeting in houses and eventually being supplied with a building.  During the two years that I lived in Lancashire the group grew to over one hundred people and the gifts of the Spirit, including prophesy and healing, operated in a wonderful way.  I saw many healings and miracles and prophetic revelations that only God could have brought about.

While living in Lancashire we came to live next door to a lady who had been told by a doctor seven years previous that she only had two months to live.  She told me that she went down on her knees and prayed to God.   I shared with her what God had done in my life regarding a miraculous healing and other healings, and she used to come into my house every morning after my husband had gone to work and our son had gone to school, and we used to have a lovely time of fellowship and prayer.  She lived for twenty two years after she had been told by the doctor that she had only two months to live.

I wanted to know more about faith and the gift of healing so I asked the Lord to teach me about sickness and healing.  Little did I know that I was at the beginning of a long journey. The following is just a small part of it:-

We had returned to Wales to live.  One evening I had eaten a fish meal and believe that a small bone from the fish lodged in my throat.  We had to cancel going out with friends that evening as the discomfort grew worse.  Over the next few days things deteriorated even more.  It felt as if an abscess had developed low down at the back of my throat, and the pain was almost unbearable.  At that time I had for some time been seeking the Lord about sickness and  healing, and faith.   I knew that faith came by hearing and hearing by the word of the Lord and I know that through His word He had been teaching me to trust in His divine power to heal, which I had already experienced many times.  He was also teaching me to trust in what He was telling me to do no matter what came along to test it.  I felt it had something to do with spiritual warfare.  

When I sought the Lord over this particular situation, He spoke to me through several scriptures that I kept opening to.  He kept showing me Isaiah 31 v.1 'Woe to those who go down to Egypt for help, who rely on horses, who trust in the multitude of their chariots and in the strength of their horsemen, but do not look to the Holy One of Israel, or seek help from the LORD', verse 3 says 'the Egyptians are men, and not God, and their horses are flesh, and not spirit'.  I knew that 'Egypt' stands for the world in the Bible and felt as though the Lord was instructing me here not to rely on man and his physical ability, but to rely on God and His spiritual capability.  I also kept opening my Bible to 2 Chronicles ch. 16 v.12 which reads 'In the thirty-ninth year of his reign Asa was afflicted with a disease in his feet. Though his disease was severe, even in his illness he did not seek help from the LORD, but only from the physicians', and also to where it says in Mark ch. 5 vs. 25 and 26:- Now a certain woman had a flow of blood for twelve years,  and had suffered many things from many physicians. She had spent all that she had and was no better, but rather grew worse.'  I really felt that all these scriptures had been highlighted to me for the purpose of encouraging me to trust in the Lord and not in the world regarding my situation.  
After this revelation of scripture to me many lumps appeared in my body, under my arms, underneath my foot, in my leg and also on my arm.  There are lots of things I could share where some of these lumps have been removed, but it would take a long time to share these testimonies.  However, I have to say that these happenings have served to increase my faith in the Lord being in this, and why they had to happen at those particular times.

Some years ago, when our son and his first wife and two children were living in Scotland, the phone rang.  It was my daughter in law.  She had been to the doctor after finding a lump in her breast some time before, and she had phoned to ask me to pray for her.  I did pray for her and kept opening my Bible to the page where I felt a certain  scripture was being brought to my attention.  It was from Isaiah ch. 54, the first line in verse 17 'No weapon formed against you shall prosper' and I believed that this word of God was for my daughter in law to believe in, so I phoned her back and shared it with her.  As believers we are in a spiritual war and the weapon here being used by the enemy was fear of what might come from this lump, and I believe it eventually robbed her of her healing.

A few days later she phoned me again and said that she and my son had visited  a church several miles away that they had never  attended before and a man she did not know came up to her and gave her a copy of a commentary on that very verse.  She could not believe it, he had known nothing about her or about our phone calls.  As time went by my daughter in law had surgery to remove her breast and some glands and after a couple of years, sadly, she passed away. 
Some time later I was on holiday with our son and the children. I had forgotten to take my Bible with me so went to get my son's Bible which had a leather cover over it.  When I opened it a piece of paper with writing on it fell out from within the leather cover.  It was something that my daughter in law had written down and contained within it were words saying that no trace of cancer had been found in any tissue or gland that had been removed, with the question 'Was it God or was it the doctors?'    I believe absolutely that the cancer had been removed by God, but I also understand my daughter in law's fear that caused her to go to the medical profession for treatment.

One morning when I began to draft this post I was thinking to myself 'The church has been given gifts by God and have been authorized to use these gifts.'  ( 1 Corinthians ch. 12 vs. 1-11 ), and we are given instruction as to what to do when we become sick. (James ch. 5 vs. 14 and 15 ).  We are told here that the Lord will restore him to health.  So why is not this happening?

I was thinking of Pharaoh's magicians, of whom many were the physicians of the day, and how they were doing the same things as God was authorizing Moses and Aaron to do, and how the medical profession is doing things that appear to come alongside what God has authorized His church to do as far as healing is concerned.  They are even delving deep into human cloning, and are now trying to work on a three parent embryo.  What is this if it is not trying to be God, and is it coincidence that a staff and a serpent are involved in both?
We have to be very careful that we do not allow doctors to become gods in our lives, and believe their word above what God has spoken to us,  putting man in the position of God in some areas of our lives.

Are some people going the same way with the medical profession, unwittingly relying on it as the healing god?  Is it coincidence that the symbol that the medical profession uses is the staff of Asclepius? 

The staff of Asclepius      

In Greek mythology the Rod of Asclepius is a
serpent-entwined rod wielded by the Greek god Asclepius,
 the deity associated with healing and medicine. 
 The symbol has continued to be used in modern times,
where it is associated with medicine and health care,
yet frequently confused with the staff of the god Hermes,
the caduceus.


I have had many signs accompanying His word over the years to encourage me to trust in Him.  One morning I awoke to a vision that the bed cover was as the sea and I was floating in an ocean.  When I later went downstairs the post man put a Kenneth Copeland Christian magazine through the door .  It had a picture of the exact replica of my vision on the front and the words 'Walk on water' at the top of the page.   I felt it was being emphasized to me that all things are possible if I keep my eyes on Jesus and not to do what caused Peter to sink - take my eyes off Jesus and look on the natural situation.

I have only ever seen miracles and healings through the prayer of faith in two churches, and these churches were operating as the church operated two thousand years ago with different parts of the body sharing what was revealed to them.   I am sure that there are lots of other church gatherings experiencing the gifts of the spirit but I really believe that much of the church is missing out, and I feel passionately to pray for a revival of these gifts operating within the church .  Perhaps there are others that feel this too.  May God grant us the desires of our heart here.

I know that we are all different and that each individual goes through their unique trials, but I believe absolutely that I have to try and overcome the spiritual enemy in my life and endeavour to continue to try to keep my eyes on the Lord in my situation.  The following is just one of the poems that I believe the Lord brought me to write, which came at an appropriate time within my trials.

How far will you follow Me
How far will you follow Me
along this narrow track
when the path becomes too lonely
will you think of turning back
Will you yearn for the things you left behind
when I called you to be apart
are there things that belong to your world of sin
lying dormant within your heart
How far will you follow Me
along this lonely road
When you suffer man's rejection
will it prove too great a load
Will you stand within my guiding light
no matter where it leads
and will you listen to my Father's voice saying
'Child, go plant the seeds'
Yes how far will you follow me
along the path to life
will the trials be too much for you
 - of sickness and strife
or will you hold on fast to faith
remembering what I have said
that faith in your Lord has a power
that can even raise the dead