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Wednesday, 2 October 2013

But my eyes are upon You O God the Lord

Sometimes I can hardly believe the way the Lord is able to strengthen me and encourage me to trust in Him in my weakness.  A few days ago I was feeling very weak in being able to hold on to the Lord's promise to me to completely heal me from the sickness I have had for so long.  My symptoms did not seem to be lessening, although He had removed completely extreme pain in the right side of my head and face - symptoms which the enemy was pointing out could be associated with a problem in my throat which I believe came as a result of a fish bone being lodged there at the beginning of this trial over twenty years ago.  

My mind seemed to be concentrating on the wisdom and ability of the world instead of the wisdom and ability of my God,  I realized that the more I thought this way the more the symptoms started to take over.  I prayed to the Lord according to the scriptures He had given me with the promise.  Psalm 119 vs. 49 and 50  'Remember Your word to me in which You have caused me to hope.  This is my comfort in my affliction, that Your promise brings me life',  and Psalm 40 v.1 'I waited patiently for the Lord and He inclined unto me.'

Then the next night I was laying in bed and for some reason it came into my mind how several things have come into my life that have been doubled. I mentioned this to my husband and said how strange it was.  I reminded him about when I had painted a picture with coloured inks on two glass vases .  

I had seen the picture in a book and had liked it because it was of swans, and one of  the things I know about swans is that they are mates for life.  My husband had said to me at one time that when we left this earth he wanted us to leave together holding hands, it had made me smile at the time. 

Shortly after painting the glass vases I was visiting a nearby town with my husband, sister and brother in law.  We were walking around a street market and I noticed a pottery vase for sale with the same picture on it.  I was amazed and bought it.

Laying in bed that night I was reminded also of a picture of a young girl and a book ornament with the same girl in a picture on one side of it and a poem to the left of it.  'Do you remember that picture and the book ornament?' I said to my husband, who by now may well have been asleep as he had not made a sound.  ' I can't remember what the poem was about.'  I thought about these two items, one that I had bought in the same town as I had bought the vase.  I was with the same people and my sister and I had gone into a church where there was a table top sale.  There was an old print of a picture of a young girl sitting outside a door blowing bubbles.

I could vaguely make out the word 'Amy' scratched in the wood at the top of the door.  I liked the picture and I knew that the name 'Amy' means 'loved'.  I just felt there was something about it and so I bought it.   
Some time later  I was at a car boot sale in a different town and came across the book ornament which had a picture of the same girl with a poem written beside it. 

As I lay there in bed that night I tried hard to think what the poem was called and what it was about, but it just would not come to me. I resolved to look at it the next morning, which I did.  Immediately I read the poem I knew why it had been taken from my mind and I had been brought to read it.

The Lord had seen my weakness and was reminding me once again that all things are possible with Him and was encouraging me to have faith to know that He will do what He has promised. Even the meaning of the young girl's name was reminding me that we are loved by the Lord.  It was a beautiful time of strengthening me against the spiritual enemy.

Psalm 141 v.8

But my eyes are upon You, O God the Lord;  In You I take refuge;


child of God said...

Hi Brenda,
You are an amazing artist! I love your painting of the swans. :)

Thanks for sharing this story and how Father reaches out to you and strengthens you. I have a few of these stories too but I want to share with you a short story of grandpa D.

Years ago he injured his hip doing some morning chores. He bent over in pain and prayed asking Father to heal him. Immediately the pain went away and grandpa D praise and thanked our Father. About 1 year later he was attacked with severe hip pain, again while doing the morning chores. Because grandpa D spent at this point in his life a lot of time dealing with spiritual warfare and the demonically possessed people, he knew this was an attack from Satan. He covered himself in the blood of Jesus Christ and told our common enemy to leave him and immediately the pain went away and he was never afflicted by it again.

Grandpa D's story is a powerful testimony to how Father answers prayer when we believe on His power and the authority He has given to us in Jesus Christ.

Father will do as He has promised, in His timing. Continuing to stand beside you in claiming this healing.


Never Forsaken said...

Hi Brenda,
I love the painting and the poem as well. Yes, hills can sure seem steeper from a distance.
Patience is not an easy thing to have, yet God says it is required in order to become perfect and whole...
Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing. (James 1:3-4)
Dear Heavenly Father, I am pleading the blood of Jesus over Brenda...May she be invisible to the enemy of her soul as you touch and cleanse her body of all sickness~ In Jesus~

Brenda said...

Hi child of God,
it is nice that you like the swans, I adore swans, although I don't know about me being such a good artist. I love painting wild animals, mainly tigers, and portraits in water colour. What a lovely testimony of your grandpa D. It is true that intense spiritual warfare brings attack from the common enemy and I stand with you against that enemy in telling him to leave my body. I too am covered by the blood of Jesus. Praise His wonderful name.
God bless you and thank you for your encouraging fellowship.

Brenda said...

Hi Lisa,
thank you for your kind comment. Yes those words in James regarding patience are so encouraging. I was reading this morning about Pharaoh's two dreams and how it was said in Genesis ch. 41 v. 32 that 'The reason the dream was given to Pharaoh in two forms is that the matter has been 'firmly decided by God, and God will do it soon'.' It made me think of how doubling had been used regarding the swans and the little girl Amy in my life, and it went together with my dream (as in the poem called dreams )with which God is encouraging me to continue in the faith that will bring about His healing of me, and that this healing has been 'firmly decided by God, and that God will do it soon'. Thank you for your prayers and God bless you.

Ceil said...

Hi Brenda! How nice to find your blog today!

Wow, that painting you did is amazing. You are so talented! I really hope that you are feeling better now?

You are so faithful, I am sure that the Lord will be with you in your valleys and dreams. "there's nothing God cannot do", that is so wonderful to keep in mind.

I will be praying for your healing.

Brenda said...

Hi Ceil,
lovely to meet you and thank you for your kind comments and your encouragement and prayers. As I awoke this morning it came into my mind that 'God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.'and it emphasized to me all the more that the carnal mind must not be allowed to rule out the truth of His word and how our warfare is spiritual.
God bless you

Unknown said...

Can you tell us what you have been suffering from over all of those years? If you have already done so, please reveal where it can be found.

Brenda said...

Hello Jerry,
What I have been suffering from over all of those years is mostly described in my post called 'I will love Thee O Lord my strength' which was posted on Saturday March 2nd 2013.

Laurie Collett said...

Dear Brenda,
What a beautiful post about how God speaks to us in beautiful imagery, if we listen, as clearly you do. I wrote song lyrics, "His Love For Me," which we are dancing to currently for our dance ministry, and my favorite line is "He whispers words of love meant just for me." How He speaks to each of His children is uniquely tailored to what will most touch our heart.
God bless,

Brenda said...

Hi Laurie,
yes it is amazing how He spoons us the perfect medicine at the perfect time isn't it. Your dance ministry sounds beautiful, and the words of your song are lovely and confirm just how personal the Lord's relationship is with each of us.
God bless you.

S. Knowles said...

Everytime I read your posts Brenda I always am left thinking about me and my life, wondering about so many things.

It is good to always remember to trust in God and to have faith. His ways are past finding out, He knows way mre than we know, He knows all things, and for me I have noticed time and time again He is faithul. The enemy wants us to become drenched in despair, to sit and worry and to doubt our Lord.

last week a little bible study group I'm in restarted after a brief summer break, and during the prayer time, one of the ladies mentioned her cousin whose name is also Brenda who is unwell. At the time I just thought to myself when I get home before I go to bed I'm going to pray for her, for God to heal her, but then as I went to pray for you too I realized wait you two have the same name. Two Brendas both who live in other countries, both in need of healing.
Then you speak in this post about things being doubled, as I write this i think wow, doubled, two Brenda in need of Gods healing.

I have been keeping you both in my prayers.I really believe that God can and will heal you both. Above all His will be done. Weakness is something I have been having an issue with too, but I always remember God's strength is made perfect in our weakness. So when I am weak, then I am strong. God bless you Brenda.

Brenda said...

Hi Sateigdra,
lovely to hear from you. I too believe that God can and will heal me, and that He can heal the other lady called Brenda as well, I will pray for her too. I don't know if you have read my reply to 'never forsaken's ' comment above but I related to Lisa how shortly after I had written this post I read in Genesis ch. 41 v. 32 about Pharaoh's two dreams and how it was said that 'The reason the dream was given to Pharaoh in two forms is that the matter has been 'firmly decided by God, and God will do it soon'.' 'GOD WILL DO IT SOON' stood out to me like a neon sign Sateigdra. The more I aim to trust God the more He reveals about His abilities, which are far above what man can do. Thank you for your prayers and may God bless you richly.

Just Be Real said...

Dear one I am glad you are finding strength in Him. Blessings to you Brenda....

Brenda said...

Thank you Grace for your encouragement.
God bless you.

S. Knowles said...

Hey Brenda,
The little Bible study group I go to through the week, that I mentioned in my last comment, I was at last night. And at the meeting the lady, who's name is Anita who's cousin is the Brenda I was telling you about, told us that she spoke to Brenda and Brenda is now doing well. When she said that you should have seen my face, I really wanted to jump up and shout, "Yes! Glory Be to God!" but I stayed calm. I have been keeping "the two Brendas", you and Anita's cousin Brenda, in my prayers all week. And to hear such a good report made me so happy. God is so faithful, everything I have ever asked Him He supplied. He is faithful.

You're next Brenda I just know it. You will be well. "Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31 Praise the Lord for His faithfulness! :-)

Brenda said...

Ah Sateigdra,
I laughed with joy at hearing your good news of Brenda. I shall jump up and shout 'Yes! glory be to God' for you. I know He will heal me, He is not a man that He should lie, and Isaiah ch.4o v. 31 is one of my favourite verses. I made a little card years ago with that verse on the front and a poem on the back. I shall put it in my next post, especially for you. Thank you so much for your prayers, and may our God bless you

S. Knowles said...

You're welcome Brenda and looking forward to your next post. :-)

Alex Horton said...

I have faith that God will heal you. However, if He doesn't end up doing so, it doesn't mean you're not one of His or that He loves you any less than His other children.

Brenda said...

Hi Alex,
yes I believe He will too. (Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God), and when I think of how He has kept me alive all these years through speaking to me through His word then my faith increases regarding what He is speaking to me now. He alone knows the reason why He speaks certain words into believer's lives, and it is all to bring Glory to Him. Twice in two days this week I have opened my Bible to read and opened to Psalm 103, and He has told me that all the promises of God are 'yes' in Jesus. I believe also that whatever we experience and share in our testimonies is to encourage one another and to overcome the enemy.(And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.)