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Wednesday, 31 March 2021

God's will or mine ?

When I first came to the Lord I was baptized and came up out of the water speaking in a language I had never learned, in the scriptures we are told it is speaking mysteries to God, which no man understands  ( 1 Corinthians ch. 14 v.2 ). Almost immediately I felt as if I was communicating with the Lord through the Word written and through poems and songs that started coming into my mind.

One of the first poems that came to mind was as if I was being asked a question by the Lord, I called it 'What do you want child?'


 'What do you want child ' the Lord will now ask
'is it riches, fortune and fame?
or is it great wisdom and knowledge of God
to bring help to the blind and the lame?
Only you can decide, just like Solomon did
the choice is now laid at your feet
but this one thing I'll tell you child - choose now the best
and your joy will be full and complete

As I journeyed on with the Lord there were thoughts which came into my mind which were also in the form of poems and songs. The following is one of them.


There's a thought that I have in my heart Lord
a desire above all that I seek
It's to serve You according to Your will
yet I know in this world I am weak
But although in myself there is weakness
I know You are the One Who is strong
So teach me Your ways and Your will Lord
that I might serve You all day long

'I will love Thee O Lord my strength.' Psalm 18 v.1

In these times many appear to have fallen away from, or do not want to hear about, Jesus and seem to be more interested in fame and fortune. I finish this post with a short poem that reflects this.


Have care and compassion now gone out of fashion
and 'Make them all pay' become phrase of the day
They don't seem to care about me and you
and only seem guided by 'Revenue'
As I gaze in wonder - this I know
My Lord is stronger than my foe
I don't get what I've paid for 'God's wrath - eternal strife'
I get what Jesus prayed for - and that's eternal life

Thursday, 11 March 2021

The shining light

The greatest light  in this darkened world is JESUS CHRIST. He is the TRUE LIGHT, and is not confined by walls, distance, or time.

God does not live in a building

God does not live in a building
in a house made by human design
where the walls have been built on traditional sand
and mans’ rules are used for a plumb line

No God does not live in a building
where some words that are preached are a lie
where mankind - the created - are worshipped
and their idols are lifted up high

For the temple of God is not made of brick walls
fixed in place using sand and cement
no it’s built upon Jesus the cornerstone
Who for our salvation was sent

He came like a sun in this darkened world
to bring knowledge of God and His ways
bringing light for man’s blinded eyes to see
giving warmth to man’s soul with His rays

When His time came to go - to return to His home 
He did not leave the world without light
but established His church as a witness to be
like a moon shining bright in the night 

Just as the moon reflects the sun in the night, so we have to reflect the light of the Son in this darkened world. Whatever gift we have been given to share, as part of the body of Christ on earth, the only source we can use to reflect that light is the Word of God .

In Mark ch. 16 v. 15 Jesus says 'Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation' Hebrews ch. 13 v. 8 says 'Jesus Christ the same yesterday and today and forever' It is stated in that Jesus was the Word of God made flesh. John ch. 1 v. 14 says 'the Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us.'

My love and gratitude to the Lord is  reflected perfectly in a song I wrote some time ago, which I would like to share in this post.

I'll never stop loving You Jesus

I'll never stop loving You Jesus 
I'll never stop praising Your name
Great shepherd so faithful and true Lord 
'twas for your lost sheep that You came
I know I had strayed in this world Lord
my eyes had been dimmed by my sin
I'd wandered about in the valleys
gone lame through the sickness within

I'll never stop thanking You Jesus
for calling me back to the fold
The wolves they had tried to devour me
I was injured and lost and so cold
Then I lifted my eyes to the mountains
as I heard Your soft voice calling me
You whispered 'I love you my lost one'
It was then that I started to see

I'll never stop needing You Jesus
to guide me and lead me back home
to be with my Father forever
no more from Your side will I roam
The path it is narrow and lonely
and the dangers are great - this I know
but with You Lord beside me I'll make it
as You show me the right way to go

As I walk down this path to salvation
I see others turned blind and gone lame
and I tell them the Father still loves them
they'll be saved if they call on Your name
My eyes they get clearer each day Lord
as the light of Your love leads me on
every step that I take towards You Lord
makes my lame legs grow healthy and strong

'For the Son of Man is come to seek and to save that which was lost.'
 Luke ch. 19 v.10

Wednesday, 24 February 2021

Thank You Lord

Thank You Lord for Your mercy so tender
thank You Lord for a love pure and true
Thank You Lord for revealing the Father
so that I could be fashioned like You
Thank You Lord that I'm part of Your body
thank You Lord we're becoming Your bride
Thank You Lord for Your Spirit of comfort
sent to lead me back home to Your side
Thank You Father that You loved and forgave us
thank You Father that You sent Your dear Son
thank You Lord that You died to redeem us
thank You Lord for the battle You've won

'He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, yet the world knew Him not. He came to His own home and His own people received Him not. But to all who received Him, who believed in His name, He gave power to become children of God, who were born, not of blood, not of the will of the flesh, not of the will of man , but of God.'     John ch. 1 vs. 10-13

Friday, 5 February 2021

The greatest sacrifice on earth

When I look at what is going on around the world now, I see things growing closer and closer to the end times prophesied in the Bible when Jesus will return to take up the remnant . There are so many people in this generation that have been brought up to believe the lies of Satan, the spiritual enemy, that the truth of salvation through believing in Jesus Christ - the Word of God - is laughed at and 'anything goes' is being taught as being 'right'. This has brought me to realize how important it is to share the gospel, and to pray regarding this to the Lord. My prayers for the world are contained in the following poems.

Something from nothing

You make something from nothing Lord I know this is true
for You took the old me and made something brand new
You turned pain and sorrow to laughter and joy
saved what Satan was trying so hard to destroy
Now my life is complete while I'm standing in You
and each trial and temptation You carry me through
I can see as my training for the work I must do
as I tell of salvation...... God's grace brought through You

If only

If only I could speak a word
to everyone who's never heard
If I could touch a troubled heart
with words of life that I'd impart
and see the turmoil being stilled
then  Lord my life would be fulfilled
And if I'd see a broken soul
crying out to be made whole
I'd tell them Lord of Calvary
and how You came to set us free
But just to do this simple thing
to sing the song I want to sing
I must have Your authority
for only you can set man free
So Father grant this power to me
that captives might have liberty
anoint with oil this mortal head
then by Your Spirit raise the dead

Lord have mercy on them all
for they know not what they do
the perils of this world surrounding them now
are forbidding their vision of You
Turn their shadowy darkness to reflections of light
let them look on Your wonderful face
for there's no other Saviour can rescue them now
Only Jesus - God's manifest grace

So have mercy great Master, reach down from Your throne
cause Your hand to unlock prison doors
for the captives are weary from fighting alone
they don't know that the battle is Yours
They don't know there's a warrior 
a great mighty Lord
the One of Whom boldly we sing
they don't know this Redeemer
with two edged sword
has the power to change everything

For they're locked in their prison
of darkness and woe
powerless - unable to see
that the jailer is Satan
the most cunning foe
who once had a power over me
So now send us dear Father with mercy and grace
out to rescue the injured and dying
close our eyes to what's written on worldly face
let our ears hear imprisoned souls crying

He said to them, 'Go into the whole world and proclaim the good news to every creature. '
Mark ch. 16 v. 15

Wednesday, 20 January 2021

Love lies bleeding

I feel to repost a post that I put up on my other blog, especially in these turbulent times and for anyone who might come over here who does not know the Lord. 

He is the image of the invisible God, the first born of all creation, for in Him all things were created, in Heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities, or authorities - all things were created through Him and for Him.  He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.  He is the head of the body, the church, He is the beginning, the first born from the dead, that in everything He might be pre-eminent.  For in Him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, and through Him to reconcile to Himself all things, whether on earth or in Heaven, making peace by the blood of His cross.                                                                                         
Colossions ch.1 vs. 15 - 20


Love lies bleeding

Love lies bleeding on a hill 
alone and far away
for the blood of Christ shed on that cross
is still poured out today
To God there is no passing time
only a way to be
This the reason Jesus came
to save both you and me
And if you say 'We're not in chains
why need we be set free?'
just look around this present world
and tell me what you see
Do you see greed enticing man
to murder, rob and cheat
while anger, lust and envy
are roaming every street?
And where a soul lies crying
alone and in despair
do you turn away while saying 
'Doesn't anybody care?'
Strong chains of sin and selfishness
are now binding all mankind
and only God's great sacrifice
can bring you peace of mind
Yes love lies bleeding on a hill
yet not so far away
for the love of Jesus .......flowing still
is just a prayer away

No longer a veil between God and you
the curtain of old has been torn in two
no more need you suffer with pain and strife
because of the sins that control your life
For Jesus was crucified in our place
and instead of the curse we now have God's grace
So step through the veil, leave the sins of the flesh
be born of God's Spirit and start afresh

But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the law and the prophets bear witness to it, the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe.  For there is no distinction, since all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, they are justified by His grace as a gift, through redemption which is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as an expiation by His blood, to be received by faith.  This was to show God's righteousness, because in His divine forbearance He had passed over former sins, it was to prove at the present time that He Himself is righteous and that He justifies him who has faith in Jesus.

Romans ch.3 vs. 21 - 26 

Monday, 11 January 2021

Being made in God's image

When we are born of man from our mother's womb we are in the image of mankind, learning man's ways and accessing man's thoughts as we grow into maturity. It is only when we believe in Jesus and are born again of the Holy Spirit that we can start to be made in God's image through the mind of Christ.  I would just like to share my thoughts on this through two poems that I wrote some time ago.

To be made in God's image is partly our choice
to choose blessing or curse with us lies
and to be born with great beauty and elegant voice
is not righteousness in God's eyes
For whether counted as worthy or great in man's book
matters not in the Father's esteem
for our good deeds are filthy compared to His deeds
regardless to us how they seem
For in Jesus God makes us all perfect and whole
when we act on His Son's precious Word
not just being 'hearers' of what's spoken to us
but being 'doer's of what we have heard'

But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves
James ch. 1 v.22

Not by good looks or prettiness
are You influenced my Lord
neither colour nor creed, high position or fame
can cause You to change Your word
You’re not tempted by what’s on the outside
to change justice, or judgment or truth
and neither can Your holy wisdom
be acquired through age or through youth
For the way to God's heart is through You Lord
you're the narrow road we must all take
the Lamb without blemish, our Saviour
Who was sacrificed for mankind’s sake
You're not only our mediator
You're a teacher and counsellor too
You're the One used when God - our dear Father
Said ‘Behold I make all things new’

But as many as received Him, to them gave He power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on His name.

John ch. 1 v.12

Then He Who sat on the throne said 'Behold, I make all things new.'
Revelation ch. 21 v.5

Saturday, 9 January 2021

Reason for my blog name.

 I just feel to repost the first post I put up on this blog, just to share to some who would not know why I started to write this blog.

My conversion to Christianity had been dramatic.  I had been very  ' worldly ' previous to my conversion, but had also experienced the supernatural presence of God through a healing when I was a child and a near death experience during my adult life.   When I was about seven years of age, I was brought home from school because I was ill.  As I lay in pain on the sofa in our living room that late afternoon my father, who was a Christian, prayed for me to be made well.  I remember all the room appearing to turn blue and my pain disappeared.  My father had been a lovely person who often, when we children had arguments and we would ask him 'Dad, dad, who is right?, would say ' Let's see what the Lord says ', and would find a verse in his Bible that would always settle the argument and bring peace amongst us.  He was quite a bit older than my mother, and died when I was eleven years of age.  I was actually in the room at his passing.  It left a great void in my life

' Father - where are you? ' said the child in despair
' Father where are you? ' she cried
But in the darkened room there was nobody there
For the father she loved had just died 

When I was thirty five I became a Christian and was baptized in water and the baptism of the Holy Spirit followed, with the gift of speaking in tongues enabling me to pray according to the will of God. 

' Father - where are You? ' said the child once again
' Father where are You? ' she cried
But this time it was not as it had been then
For now God was the Father on whom she relied

Through her deepest emotions - love, anger and shame
When her heart was in turmoil You was calling her name
When the hurt that she carried was too much to bear
If it wasn't for You Lord there'd be nobody there

You are always there Jesus though we don't always see
You revealing God's love to the world ....... and to me

 I immediately began to feel a deep desire to tell others about Jesus and the need for salvation.  I remember once being on a railway station looking into the restaurant at all the people sat in there.  I wondered how many of them knew that we all have to be born again of God's Holy Spirit in order to enter the kingdom of God, and that Jesus is the only name under Heaven by which we might get saved and be reconciled back to God.  It made me want to cry, and there on that railway station I prayed for the people that I saw in the restaurant and all those who did not know about salvation through Jesus.
We were living in a flat in Adelaide, South Australia, at the time.  We had sold our bungalow and were in the process of trying to decide whether we should return to the U.K or move to another state.  That afternoon, after the experience on the railway station, I returned to our flat with this burden for people heavily on my mind.  I entered the flat and went straight to the bathroom.  A soon as I entered the bathroom I was aware of something deeply spiritual.  The whole room suddenly began to change until I was aware that I was standing inside a lighthouse.  I was looking out through a door and could see little boats on a very rough sea.  Each little boat was occupied by just one person, and I was aware that these boats were drifting out on the ocean, that the people had no control over them amd were in danger of drowning.  Then, just as suddenly, I was back in my bathroom, amazed at what I had just experienced.
Shortly after, we returned to the U.K to live in Lancashire,  We stayed with my brother and his family for six weeks and then were given a council house.  Within a short time the Lord led me to some other Christians and added to us until eventually a church became established.  We used to pray and intercede for the area constantly and the Lord continued to add to us.  At that time I suddenly started to write poetry and songs, some which seemed to minister to people and some which were my own personal prayers, which the Lord sometimes answered within the poem itself.  I still had this burden for outsiders which had become even stronger.  I felt like I wanted to stand outside in the street and tell everyone about Jesus but did not know how to.  I prayed to the Lord and felt that all my frustrations, and the answer to them, came out in this poem.

No need to tell You Father what joy is in my heart
No need to tell this family of which I'm now a part
But when I try to tell the world about the way I feel
My words do not express Lord Your love which is so real
'Just put your trust in Me child'  You always seem to say
'Be gentle and forgiving - Jesus shows the way'
I call the world through Jesus, this you know is so
For when you first sought Me child I said 'To Him you go'
So do not worry for the world, for he who seeks will find
Just rest, surrounded by my love - life's chains no longer bind
And when you've learnt your Father's ways, each day to you revealed
Then you too will show the world just how my love is sealed

This settled my heart to know that I did not have to worry about other people being visited with salvation, that God was in control, but I also felt that He was going to lead me into evangelism.
The area that we were living in, like most areas, housed some drug addicts and heavy drinkers, and a lot of my prayers were out of concern for them.  One day I read in a newspaper how a nightclub called 'The Lighthouse' had been burned down and people had died in the fire.  I cried bitterly as I recalled my vision and related the loneliness and despair of the people in their little boats on the ocean in my vision to the loneliness and despair that I knew existed in the world of club night life and its so called 'joys'.  I cried for the people who had died in their 'Lighthouse' without maybe ever having experiencing the joys of knowing the Lord.  This anguish also came out in the form of a poem, which I called ......

The Lighthouse

Father I'm in the lighthouse, I'm in Your sanctuary
saved from the perils of the world - plucked from the stormy sea
No longer in life's darkness, a light was shone for me
And not because I was righteous, but because I needed to be
Father I see many people outside upon the waves
tossed about in their boats of fear, seeking the hand that saves
They're drowning in the ocean of misery and pain
striving to keep from sinking - but labouring in vain
Father send them Jesus, just like You did with me
shine the light towards them and change their destiny
Cause them to see their Saviour, Your wonderful, precious Son
bring them into Your kingdom, and let Your will be done
Father how I love You, and want to praise Your name
I'll bless the name of Jesus ...... and thank my God He came

The Lord started to bring people from the area I was living in across my path, and some of these people would come to my home for prayer meetings, and would come to church.  Meanwhile I would discuss my desires with a lady friend at church who spoke about maybe the two of us opening a coffee shop called 'The Lighthouse', but nothing came of it.
After living in Lancashire for two years we returned to Bridgend to live and I started attending church where I met my friend, Paula.  We started meeting together regularly for prayer and realized that we were united in the Spirit as far as the burden for the unsaved was concerned.  Paula started writing poetry and songs, and we realized much of our poems appeared to be evangelistic in nature.  We sought the Lord over them and felt we were instructed by Him to put these poems into leaflet form, with corresponding scriptures, and go out into the 'highways and the byways' with them.  This we did and still do.
Soon after, we felt the Lord directing us to Cardiff prison with out poetry and songs, with the Lord telling us that He had 'set before us an open door'.  We went to Cardiff and on the way to the prison we called at the ladies toilet in the market.  I went to put money in a door with 'vacant' on it, and a lady stood at the sink said 'That one's not working, someone just put money in and it would not open'.  I had already dropped the coin into the slot, so I tried to slide the catch across, and the door opened.  'That's strange' the lady said, it would not open just now'.  When I came out of the cubicle someone else put money into the slot and the door would not open.  Both Paula and myself felt that this was a sign going together with the scripture the Lord had given us concerning an open door to us going into the prison.  We went to the prison only to be told that the chaplain was the one we should speak to and that he was not there that day.  I immediately wrote a note telling him what we felt to do and left some of our leaflets to be given to him.  He contacted us on the following Wednesday and, after an arranged meeting, invited us to be prison visitors.  This we did for eighteen months, and during that time were allowed to evangelise to the prisoners, freely sharing our poetry and songs whilst doing so.  We both felt this was our calling from God, to evangelise to those in despair.  I had already shared the story of my vision with Paula, we started to pray to the Lord for 'The Lighthouse', a place where people could come to have a cup of coffee and the gospel, people who may not initially come into the established church buildings.  The Lord had for some time been telling us that we would be a light to the gentiles, and to set the prisoners free, and giving us the ministry to do it through our poetry and songs as well as verbal witnessing.  He was opening doors for us to do this constantly.
One night a friend left a book she was reading in my car after I had dropped her off.  The next morning I read the book.  It was about a man who had also felt a burden for the lost and a desire to have a similar kind of place.  The Lord had provided this place and also the money to purchase it.  I felt that the Lord could be confirming to me through this book that there woould be a place called 'The Lighthouse'.  
That afternoon I had invited my sister and brother in law to my house and also invited Paula.  I was so excited about what I felt was happening that I determined to tell Paula when I saw her that I believed the Lord was speaking about 'The Lighthouse'.  As Paula came through my back garden gate that afternoon I said 'Paula, I think the Lord is speaking about the Lighthouse.'  She was amazed.  She said that she had been waiting for the bus to come up to my house.  She had to go to the bus stop in Market Street in Bridgend because the bus station was closed.  As she sat on the bus she noticed a property for sale across the road, a business property which had been used as a video shop.  She did not think anything of it until the bus went around the town in a full circle coming back to the same place and she was once more right opposite this shop.  Now she felt that her attention was being brought to this property, and she thought about 'The Lighthouse.  'Lord', she said, 'If You are pointing this property out as the future Lighthouse then have Brenda say to me when I see her, 'I think the Lord is talking about 'The Lighthouse'.
We decided to go to enquire about the property.  Shortly after, I had a dream in which someone was saying to me 'You have to move into number thirty five'  I told them 'I don't want to move into thirty five, it hasn't got a garden'.  When we were shown around the property we were told it was number thirty five, and it was up for sale for thirty five thousand pounds.  We didn't have the money and someone else bought it, an Indian man.  We prayed about this and still we felt that the Lord was speaking about 'The Lighthouse', telling us through Joshua ch.1 that we would go in and possess the land, and through Esther ch.4 that we had come for such a time as this.  Paula actually went to work for the man who had bought the property.  He owned bed sits in another part of town as well, and she went to clean them.  I used to go with her sometimes and the Lord gave us many opportunities to witness to the tenants, who were mostly young males.  At one time Paula thought she might sell her house and try to buy the property in Market Street, it had a flat upstairs, but she did not have enough money to do so.  Several times we were offered the chance of renting the property, but we did not have enough money and planning permission was refused for a cafe at that time because of the fact that there was no pavement fronting it. 
About this time I started creating laminated poetry wall hangings, little cards, painted picture poems and other little Christian crafts, and Paula started making crocheted shawls, bags and other  crafts, these  increased and we often thought they would be suitable for selling and displaying in 'The Lighthouse'.  The property in Market street was let to several people but never for any length of time until, I believe, it became a hairdressers several years ago.
I had stopped thinking about the property becoming 'The Lighthouse', then something happened.  I had been to Neath with my husband and while there a lady came into my mind whom I had not seen or thought of for some years.  The next day I saw her in Bridgend and she had a young man with her who was concerned about something that had happened to him that he felt he had no control over and did not understand.  I gave him one of my Christian leaflets that I felt would speak directly into his situation, and he asked if I would come to the lady's house soon to speak with him.  The lady also invited me to her house, and asked me to pray for her, that she had to go into hospital because she had cancer.  She told me that the last time I had seen her I had given her a poem because she was upset about something, that it had helped her and that she had also passed it on to a man who had lost his sixteen year old son.  She then asked if I would write her another poem because she was sick.  I told her that I had a poem which I believed would speak to her, and that I would bring it with me to her house.  I asked if I could bring a friend with me and she said I could.  Paula said she would come with me and I rang up a couple of days later, when this lady told me of a friend who had tried to kill herself.  I arranged for us to go that afternoon, and took with me another poem and scripture for the friend.  During the couple of hours we spent there, several peoples' lives were shown to be in such darkness, and yet I could see the Lord's purpose in our visit.  the lady we were visiting had previously had an experience where she believed that God had brought a friend out of a coma as a result of her seeking Him. When I came home I started to think about the need for the Lord to be in everyone's life and over the next few days I felt the need to pray and to intercede, crying for these people.  One evening shortly after, I was tidying up my files on my computer when I came across something I had not seen for years, I had forgotten that it was on my computer.  It was a letter to the owner of the shop in Market Street, asking him if he would let Paula and myself rent the premises.  The letter was dated November 26th 1998.  As I read the letter on my computer screen I realized that the date that day was also November 26th, nine years later.  I had to ask myself, 'Is the Lord in this?'
Some strange things happened during the next couple of weeks.  I was putting a little booklet together called 'The world lies in darkness'  The church that I was attending was open at night on weekends to allow people who might need help to come in.  There are many pubs and clubs open in the town and people sometimes get injured in fights or become distressed, and pastors from the town's churches patrol the area.  It came into my mind that it might be nice to leave the booklet around for them to read if they wished.  I thought I might take it to the pastor of the church.  I took it down on the Tuesday ladies' meeting and he was there preaching about being a light to the gentiles.  I had given him the book when I walked in and could not help but notice that so many things that he preached were similar to what was in the booklet.  I also thought about the Lighthouse poem being in the front of the booklet and wondered, once again, if the Lighthouse cafĂ© might come into being.
Shortly after, we were in the process of moving to Llandybie, near Ammanford in West Wales, and I thought 'What about the Lighthouse?' Then the banker made a mistake twice in my name, calling me Sandra, and printing out insurance cover twice with that name on it.  I thought about how the building we wanted for the Lighthouse used to be called 'Sandra's'.  Sandra means 'one who helps men' or exciter of love', and that is part of the work of the Holy Spirit in us.  Since coming to our new home my prayers for what I am to do with all that I feel I have been brought to write have increased passionately, and recently I have been brought through several events to find myself sat in front of a computer feeling very strongly that I should set up this blog.